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1 Apr 07 Easter and organization

I spent the weekend at Jessica’s parents’ farm and enjoyed an Easter celebration with her family yesterday. We had an Easter egg hunt for the little kids, a lot of food (a wagon bed half covered in it), and a hay ride. I also got to feed a calf from a gigantic bottle filled with a powdered milk mixture. That was a first for me; we never had cows when I was growing up on my parents’ farm, and the only time I’m ever around them is at Jessica’s since they raise beef cattle. I put up some photos of flowers and things around the farm. Fortunately, it was really pretty both yesterday and today and only rained like a biznatch in the night. I know this only because I was woken up in the wee hours by Jessica shutting the window next to my bed. I heard squeak squeak squeak squeak, pause (I’m sure she was thinking, “Crap! This is a lot of noise, but I have to get this shut!”, followed by a few more squeaks before the window got fully shut.

This morning, I read a chapter in my microcomputer organization book and it felt like the longest chapter ever. It was 65 pages and it took me two hours to read it. I’m normally a fast reader, but when I get into school books, time slips by so quickly. I find myself rereading sentences multiple times before I realize what I’m doing and that I haven’t paid any attention. My mind wanders so easily when the subject matter bores me. So I finally got the darn chapter read, which was over both single-cycle and multi-cycle processor designs, and took a break to eat lunch. Shortly after, Jess and her family were back from church and I came back to Lexington a little while later.

Todd and I spent the afternoon getting my car washed (gotta get that road salt off), returning a ferret care book (a little money back from my ferret adventure, hurrah), and picking up some organizational supplies for my apartment. The top shelf of my closet (you’ll love this, Trin and Jess) now has two long sets of shelves running along it in which my towels and other things are organized. Before, I just had all that crap crammed up there. I’m also making a Goodwill bag and sorting out other things to take back to my parents’ house, which is helping me get the rest of my stuff organized. In the kitchen, we set up a set of cheap metal shelving on which my various jars of pastas and sugar are arranged. Everything is much more tidy, though my bed is still covered in things that need to be put away.

Upcoming things, just to keep them straight in my head:

  • Finish my state taxes and mail both them and federal;
  • Go with Todd to his parents’ for Easter this weekend;
  • Study for a microcomputer organization test on Friday;
  • Clean out the bedding from the ferret cage and post ads for it.

3 Apr 07 new CD and rain

Gwen Stefani’s The Sweet Escape came in today and I’ve been really enjoying it. I had the first one for a while until I traded it on Lala because I thought it was just okay. This one has been much better for me, though I read reviews saying that it sounded like Hollaback Girl turned into a full album, and I hated that song. I think this would make a great dance album, and it’s upbeat, which is something I’ve been looking for after a lot of Death Cab for Cutie, Ani Difranco, and Zero 7. My favorite songs so far have been Wind It Up, The Sweet Escape, Yummy, and Don’t Get It Twisted.

I made linguine with meat sauce tonight for dinner but instead of using the usual ground beef, I went with ground turkey. Kelly was telling me the other day that she uses it just like hamburger in a lot of foods because it’s so much less fattening. The meat turned out not having much of a flavor; I think I’ll stick with using low fat beef. I had an interesting trip to the grocery earlier because it started raining like the dickens while I was in the store. I went into Kroger when the sky was cloudy, the light was green, and the wind was crazy, but there was no rain. When I came out fifteen minutes later, it was gushing. I ran to my car, which was parked in the first row, and got soaked. I was glad I only had a few bags to carry and didn’t have a cart to deal with.

4 Apr 07 baby photos

Todd commented the other day that he hadn’t seen any photos of me as a child. I had Dad find some photos to scan and upload so Todd could see them, and I enjoyed looking through them myself. I found two things pretty funny: one is that I had a coat with a wiener dog on it.
me as a baby in flowers

Wow, fashion in the 80’s, huh? I do look cute sporting a dachshund, though. I remember seeing those shoes around our barn when I was older but I never knew they were mine. The second funny thing is that I had the same Kentucky Wildcats shirt then that I do now, though my current one is a bit bigger. You can’t see the shirt that well in the photos below, but the one on the left matches the one I’m wearing on the right exactly.
me as a baby me with peachick

5 Apr 07 the ease of Linux with a focus on Ubuntu

Note: If you enjoy this article, you might also check out the Geeky Stuff section.

3till7.net had some excitement yesterday because a post from 2005 got Dugg, and is also garnering a lot of hits from StumbleUpon. I find this funny because it’s such an old post but also because the content is just an email my dad sent me about how all these different companies use Linux. I sent him an email saying I should post more of his emails on my site. ;)

The commentary on both that post and Digg, though, has prompted me to write an article about Linux for people other than big businesses. It was the case, back in the day, that Linux was for the hacker elite, but those days are long gone. Now, you can pop in a live CD and you’re off. Most live CD’s offer an install option, so if you like browsing around the OS, double-click an icon on the desktop and it’ll install to your hard drive. When I got my new computer, to install Ubuntu, I just popped in the CD, let it boot, and chose the install option. I then sat back as it did everything for me. Oh, it asked me a few questions, such as my name, where I was located, etc., but those aren’t exactly questions that computer newbies would have trouble with. The whole thing was easy; I watched TV while I was doing it and just glanced over every now and then to see its progress. It rebooted when it finished and I was presented with a login screen. I typed the user name and password I’d chosen, and boom! I had a pretty desktop with very normal looking menus. If someone is used to Windows, they’re going to feel pretty comfortable with a distribution such as Ubuntu because the layout is easy to work with.

Ubuntu is the distribution I recommend to Linux newbies, too. It’s easy to install and it’s easy to maintain. When there are updates to the system, you see a little orange symbol in the taskbar and it pops up a little message telling you 1) that there are updates and 2) to click the orange symbol to install them. It’s as easy as that. As for applications in Linux, there is usually an alternative available; see The Linux Equivalent Project for a big list of Windows applications and several Linux alternatives.

Installing software in Ubuntu is also typically easy because it’s a Debian derivative, and one fantastic feature of Debian is apt-get:

Advanced Packaging Tool, or APT, is a package management system used by Debian GNU/Linux and its derivatives. APT simplifies the process of managing software on Unix-like operating systems, by automating the retrieval, configuration and installation of software packages, either from binary files or by compiling source code.

Wikipedia

Apt-get does not have a GUI, which may be intimidating for those new to Linux. Fortunately, there’s Synaptic, which is a GUI frontend to apt-get. You open up Synaptic, search for the application or functionality you’re looking for, and it shows a list of possible applications. Choose the one you want and click a button to install it. Some people who tried Linux several years ago, or who tried a distribution without apt-get, will cite the difficulty of installing applications as a drawback to Linux. With a Debian derivative, that’s not a concern. If you’re installing a tarball or an RPM, you might have to go out and download dependencies for whatever you’re trying to install. With apt-get, you don’t have that worry because it calculates the dependencies, gets them, and installs them for you. It’s smart about it, too, installing the dependencies before installing your desired package.

Despite the simplicity I’ve been talking about, I still hear from people that Linux is not meant for total newbs, Joe Sixpacks, average people with no computer know-how. I call shenanigans.

  • My mom - Mom is not a computer person, she’s a plant person. She’d love nothing more than to spend all her free time repotting plants in her greenhouse. However, since getting internet access years ago, she has discovered the world of online plant trading. My dad maintains the computers in their house and, rather than deal with the continuous BSODs, viruses, crashes, and random, undecipherable Windows errors, he just installed Debian on my mom’s machine. She doesn’t have to deal with any of that crap now. She just clicks her little Firefox icon to surf plant web sites or her Thunderbird icon to check her mail. This is an example of the usability of Linux for one particular “Joe Sixpack,” after Linux has been set up for said user.
  • My dormmates - Back when I lived in the dorm, there were occasionally issues with the residential internet service. Usually they affected everyone regardless of their operating system, but on one occasion, I was doing fine on my Linux box when my roommate on her XP system couldn’t get anything to load. I thought it was an isolated issue before our neighbors came asking if we were having internet troubles. I had a few live CD’s laying around because I enjoy trying out different distributions from time to time. I don’t remember if they were Kororaa, Ubuntu, Knoppix, or a mixture of all three. Nevertheless, I distributed them to the other girls with an explanation to pop them in their CD drive, that it wouldn’t overwrite any of their stuff, but that they would be able to get online with them. I went with one of the girls, Tiffany, to ensure things worked out. She stuck it in her laptop, booted the disc, and got Firefox up and running. Most live CD’s are set up to work with dang near any configuration, so it automatically recognized the internet connection and she was online without any hassle. I introduced her to Gaim so that she could log on to AIM or MSN or whatever and talk to people. I left her with the instructions to reboot and pop the CD out when she was done. A few days later, she brought it back to me, grateful and with her Windows install on her laptop unharmed.

It is also often said to me that getting “basic” features installed in Linux, such as Flash or MP3 support, is difficult. This is another area where Ubuntu shines, in my opinion: if you do a Google search for “ubuntu MY PROBLEM“, you’re probably going to find a solution somewhere on the Ubuntu Forums or elsewhere on the web. Searching for specific problems for other distributions, or for just Linux in general, often lead to good results, too. I’m citing Ubuntu here because I’m more familiar with it and because it’s known for its very friendly user base. There are sites such as Ubuntu Guide for how to install pretty much anything, such as Automatix2, which will let you install things like Flash with one click in a nice GUI. For MP3 support and other restricted formats, Ubuntu has a particular help page addressing that topic.

Even though such things are easy to install, it’s still raised as a complaint that they require installation at all. “Why doesn’t Linux just come with these things? They’re on my Windows machine by default.” To understand this, you have to understand some of the history and reasoning behind Linux and open source software in general. There are different ideals for Linux than there are for Windows; it’s a whole different beast.

Patent and copyright restrictions complicate free operating systems distributing software to support proprietary formats. … Ubuntu’s commitment to only include completely free software by default means that proprietary media formats are not configured ‘out of the box’. … If this seems like unnecessary work, remember that Ubuntu is limited by patents and license restrictions in some countries, which make it illegal for Ubuntu to include them.

Ubuntu RestrictedFormats page

See also Philosophy of the GNU Project.

The bottom line is that Linux is really not that hard, even for non-geeks. I think a lot of the reports that it’s hard come from the following issues:

  • It’s different from Windows. It has a different ideology from Windows and that shapes how things are in the Linux world. It’s all up in that “open source” stuff, a lot of distributions don’t include things like support for the MP3 format, and people just don’t get why that is at first.
  • People have had bad experiences in the past. I have a cousin that’s an electrical engineer; he programs embedded systems all day in C. This guy is most definitely a computer geek. However, his first experiences with Linux were back in the 90’s with RedHat. He experienced firsthand RPM dependency hell, as well as a young and green Linux. For years he refused to try Linux again, sticking instead to familiar Windows. He eventually gave it another shot with Mepis and hasn’t gone back since. He and his wife, who isn’t a computer geek, happily use Linux exclusively on their home machine. Mepis worked with his wireless configuration, KDE suits him, and Linux is no longer a confusing hassle–it just works.
  • Outdated information is spread. Yeah, Linux was not as sleek and user-friendly several years ago as it is today, but then again, what was? How pretty was Windows 95 in comparison with Vista? Remember the brick-like phones that Nokia used to sell, and how everyone had one? How about those old web sites with the flashing GIF images, frames, and lack of CSS? The point is, technology just gets prettier and better over time, and Linux is no exception. If you’re talking to someone who tried Linux a few years ago and getting a bad impression, you’re not getting an accurate reflection of how things would be for you, were you to try it today.
  • You’re told it won’t work with your particular machine. Now that’s just crazy talk. Linux works with some of the most obscure hardware out there, often out-of-the-box. Support is continually being developed for hardware, too. When the next hot device comes out, you can bet there’s going to be a Linux solution for it. Linux worked on my old machine with its K6-2 500 MHz processor and on my new machine with its AMD Athlon 64 X2 3800+ processor. It worked on Todd’s Powerbook, dual booting with OS X. It works on an old 386 at my parents’ house. It works on my Sharp Zaurus. See Linux Drivers.

7 Apr 07 why are lesbians popular on TV?

I’m at Todd’s parents’ for Easter weekend and I did an odd thing last night: I watched The O’Reilly Factor on FOX. I hold decidedly liberal viewpoints about most things political and usual find myself scoffing at conservatives, not watching their big mucky-mucks on TV. However, I was lured in by the idea that there would be discussion of the whole Howard Stern, American Idol, votefortheworst.com controversy. Before getting to that, however, there was a segment that O’Reilly described as “lesbian chic,” about how lesbians have become popular and cool due to the media in the past year. I wouldn’t say the past year is entirely accurate: I think the popularity of lesbianism and being gay has been increasing for years. I can certainly remember it being the scandalous yet intriguing thing when I was in high school.

Anyway, O’Reilly’s big question was: why? Why is it cool to portray lesbians on TV? This is the part that really surprised me. I hear about older people being disconnected from youth, but I usually don’t notice evidence of it. This just seems so obvious to me that I figured everyone knew it. Here are my opinions on why Britney and Madonna kissed in their performance, why Courtney Cox and Jennifer Aniston kissed on Dirt, why Girls Gone Wild and spring break videos are riddled with lesbian scenes:

  • Sex sells. It’s been called the oldest profession and it certainly seems true. When you’ve got nothing else to sell and make a living, you’ve always got yourself. And if you’re not willing to do it yourself, there are a thousand other women ready and willing to take your place. Sexual scenes show up in all kinds of movies, from horror to comedy, action to, naturally, romance. It’s used in commercials to sell almost anything. Sexual innuendo comes up in television all the time, as well as in print and definitely in comedic skits. Back in 2003, pornography was a $10 billion industry. Obviously, sex sells, and seeing gay sexual acts sells, too.
  • It’s controversial and rebellious. Of all the lesbian acts in the media, I would wager the majority are aimed at the younger generation. A wealth of controversy surrounds being gay for various reasons, so seeing any obviously gay act out in the open on public TV is somewhat scandalous. At least where I grew up, being gay was not something your parents encouraged. To the contrary, it was very much impressed on my peers that it was disgusting, wrong, and sinful. Want an easy way to rebel as a teenager? Embrace homosexuality. It’ll concern your parents and get attention from everyone. As soon as being gay stops being an issue, it’ll become less popular to portray on TV to get shock value. I think we would see more of it on TV if it were more accepted, but it wouldn’t be for the sake of getting everyone’s attention, but to tell a story or for any of the reasons you see straight couples on TV. It won’t catch the viewers’ attentions and increase ratings. Out with the old, in with the new–maybe we’ll start seeing bestiality in our TV dramas, if it’s the next scandalous thing.
  • Lesbians are hot. I have to think that O’Reilly has never met a frat boy or other young male, or looked at pornography. He showed clips of spring break videos in last night’s show and each time two girls were making out, they were surrounded by guys looking tickled to death. One reason the media is showing so much lesbian action is because it gets the attention of their male viewers. I’m not going to try and figure out the male psyche, but for whatever reasons, a lot of guys like it when two (or more) girls get together in a physical way. Why don’t we see two guys making out in spring break videos or on shows like Dirt? It just doesn’t sell as much as two women. Sure, it would be provoking and get your attention, but I think most viewers would change the channel in disgust. While it has become more socially acceptable for two girls to show attraction to each other, and plenty of people find it appealing to watch, showing gay males still has a big stigma around it.

So what do you think? Am I missing some reasons about why the media shows off lesbian acts? Is it understandable for O’Reilly to be so clueless about lesbian popularity?

9 Apr 07 too little time for programming

Note: If you enjoy this article, you might also check out the Geeky Stuff section.

I tell you, I just don’t have enough time to do everything I want to, which is a very common lament, I’m sure. I’ve been working on this project called Moola Tracker for my own use, and Todd’s as well, with these specs:

  • Easily add expenses and income, noting the location I spent money or from whom I received money;
  • See a history of where my money’s going and coming from;
  • See charts and graphs because each location will be broken into types (grocery, restaurant, etc.). For example, I want to be able to see a pie chart of the types of places I spent my money in the past month;

However, I also have class to attend, homework to complete, and a new layout to which I also want to devote my time. Not to mention I enjoy watching TV, surfing the Internet, and reading. I hate having all kinds of things lined up to do but with so little time to work on them. Getting a laptop has been a big blessing for a variety of reasons, including taking notes in class quicker than by hand, but I also get distracted by it because I can so easily be programming, playing in Photoshop, and surfing the Internet when I’m supposed to be paying attention in class. I do still take notes and unearth myself from my Powerbook on occasion, but I don’t pay as much attention as I used to. Of course, in classes like discrete math it doesn’t matter, because I learn exactly jack from that lecture anyway, but I need to get better about it in microcomputer organization because his lectures are worthwhile.

I don’t know if we’re having physics lab today or not. Our report had to be turned in this morning, and lab is at 1p, so I don’t know why we would meet. Hopefully my partner returns my call or email about it. Now I’ve got to run and meet Jess for lunch.

10 Apr 07 RMagick issues on OS X

I’ve made some progress with Moola Tracker such that expenses and incomes can be added and a history of them is shown. I now want to display some graphs, which should be an easy task thanks to Gruff Graphs, but unfortunately installing RMagick on my Powerbook has been hell so far. I tried installing just the gem but it gave errors, I tried installing a package that had both ImageMagick and RMagick in it but that failed, I tried installing RMagick using MacPorts but that failed, and now I’m going through the instructions on RMagick’s page but I’m now getting these errors:

dyld: NSLinkModule() error
dyld: Symbol not found: _GetMultilineTypeMetrics
Referenced from: /opt/local/lib/ruby/gems/1.8/gems/rmagick-1.15.5/./ext/RMagick/RMagick.bundle
Expected in: flat namespace

setup.rb: Too many examples failed. The RMagick documentation cannot be installed
successfully. Consult the README.txt file and try again, or send email
to rmagick@rubyforge.org.
post-setup.rb: PreserveAspectRatio.rb example returned error code 5
make: *** [all] Error 1

So now I’m dealing with that pickle of an error report. Here’s hoping I get it fixed soon, because I really want the pie charts in Moola Tracker. In the meantime, work isn’t halted on the project by any means; I’ll just comment out the require statements that are breaking. I need to add a lot of other functionality, including:

  • Ability to search through expenses and incomes by date, amount, location, location type, and other characteristics;
  • Ability to sort expenses and incomes;
  • Pagination of expense and income listings;
  • Ability to edit, delete, and modify expenses and incomes.

This is really the sort of blog entry I should be posting on Mumble Ramble, but nobody reads the blog over there. That’s actually a problem I’m having: what to do with Mumble Ramble. It was originally going to be home to all the Ruby on Rails projects I came up with, but it just doesn’t get enough love. I threw up some premade Mephisto layout and post in it very rarely (hence the lack of readers). The only project that gets any attention is Hegemony, though Todd does update his blog there on occasion. If I could figure out how to do Rails on Dreamhost, which is 3till7’s host, I’d be set. I could just move Hegemony over here and offer to host Todd here as well. If I were going to do such a thing, I would need to move Hegemony before too long because I only have a year with HostingRails and the mumbleramble.org domain name, and I would want to set up a redirect to the new location on 3till7 so that everyone would have a chance to change their links and find the new place. This means, I guess, that I need to take some time and learn how to deal with Rails on Dreamhost here. What was I posting about just yesterday? That I don’t have time to do all the stuff I want to do, haha.

11 Apr 07 photo projects and future updates

I was tickled the other day to find the I’m Too Sad to Tell You project, which is a collection of photos of all these different people that are crying or just sad looking. I think it’s a very neat idea, mostly because you never get to see real people (i.e. non-TV) crying. I know I look ridiculous when I cry, so it was interesting to see what other people look like when they’re upset. I wish I had thought of the idea for such a project. I could always do one with some other emotion, but sadness is such a secretive one compared with happiness or even anger. It does make me want to do some kind of photography project, though. I remember having the idea a few years ago to do a project where the focal point was always a stop sign. The idea would be to showcase all kinds of different surroundings, levels of light, times of day, and people that happen to be around stop signs. My problem with any kind of photography project, however, is that I’m forgetful and don’t always have my camera with me. I should fix that and just start carrying it around. It’s not as if my Canon Powershot is particularly bulky. Seeing Trin’s updates to her photo section recently has also made me long for more awesome photos so that I could justify putting a lot of time in on updating my gallery. Maybe I can continue using the Wordpress plugin for the photo gallery I have currently, but create a secondary gallery for what I consider my best photos. The former gallery would be snapshots, goofy photos of me and my friends, that sort of thing, while the latter would be the nicer shots.

I’ve been continuing work on a new layout for 3till7.net. A pseudo-preview of it can be seen by viewing this photo, which I’m using as a main graphic in the layout. I took that shot in a field across from Jessica’s house. I’ve got the layout working in Firefox, Opera, and Safari, but IE 6 is a mess. I also need to add the search field to the sidebar and go over it for accessibility optimizing. I was working on a site map for the site earlier, too, which will come about with the new layout. Another update that will come about is that the sidebar for several sections, including Techy, Portfolio, and 3till7.net, will be more useful, with sectional navigation links.

12 Apr 07 switching families

Note: This was a dream of mine. I have this warning here because some visitors have thought my life had just gone to pot, when really they were only reading one of my crazy dreams. :)

I was in Lowe’s with my mom, shopping for decorative plants to put in the hermit crab aquarium. I had a full basket picked out and I was very excited about it, because I couldn’t wait to get home and make their aquarium all pretty. However, I started thinking about it, and realized that not only was I about to spend a lot of money, but also that half the plants I was getting wouldn’t fit in their aquarium because they were too tall. One sales clerk advised me that some of the plants would grow to be huge, too. Sadly, I started to put some plants back. I tried to place a tall, skinny cactus back on its shelf but the plant kept toppling over. I tried several times and then saw my mom nearby, talking with another clerk. At a pause in their conversation, I said loudly, “Mom!” and got her attention. She looked at me with an annoyed expression for having interrupted her talk. I asked her to put the plant back up on the shelf. She kind of waved me off, saying she’d get it in a minute, so I just laid the cactus down in the floor.

I started walking back to my cart and heard my mother yelling that I needed to come and get the cactus. I ignored her but got annoyed myself. When I got to my cart, the sales clerk I had spoken with earlier said snidely, “I knew you weren’t going to pay for all those plants yourself.” I got really angry and shouted at her, “Yes, I was! Why do you think I have this?” I started digging around in my cart for my purse, so that I could show her credit cards and cash. She didn’t look like she believed me, so I went up to her and pointed my finger at her head. I then yelled, “This is the worst clerk ever and this is the worst service I’ve ever had. I won’t be coming back here again.” I then left the basket filled with plants, took my purse, and left.

When I got out to the parking lot, I was still fuming and didn’t want to wait around for my mother. Lowe’s was in a small city with residential houses lining the streets nearby. I started jogging down the sidewalk and crossed the road to go down a residential street. I came to one of the houses and went in. A narrator’s voice come out of nowhere and started talking about picking up a new life with a new family. The voice said that, if one did that, the “first” memory that person would have would be of the last thing that happened in their old life. I did that and some amount of time passed, though I didn’t experience what happened, I just knew it was suddenly a few months later. I had yet to meet my new family, even though I had been living with them. It was nighttime and I was wandering through the house. I came to just outside the kitchen and I heard a low, hissing voice in the kitchen saying something about being lied to. I collapsed on the floor, crying, saying, “They did that to me, too.”

13 Apr 07 planes and, of course, zombies

Note: This was a dream of mine. I have this warning here because some visitors have thought my life had just gone to pot, when really they were only reading one of my crazy dreams. :)

Trin and I were standing around in our swimsuits at a long, silver swimming pool. Trin was at the ladder, climbing in. The pool was located at the edge of a cliff; maybe fifty feet out from the cliff, a sheer rock face went up. Between the cliff and the rock face, this black, tarp-like material stretched horizontally. The cliff we were on went downhill, and there were several sections of tarp, like steps, going along with the side of the cliff. Water flowed down it, and it remained stiff. It was sturdy enough for people to walk on, which some were doing further down the hill: some frat guy and a girl he was with had their jeans rolled up and were splashing around, talking. It was a sunny day; Trin and I were swimming and talking. Someone else was with us but I can’t remember who.

I heard the girl from behind us say something about, ‘what a pretty plane’, so I looked around at her. She was pointing at a large commercial plane in the sky behind us. I turned back around and saw that it looked very low to the ground. I asked Trin, “Are they supposed to be that low?” She said something about ‘not normally’ but, as we watched, the plane pulled back up and seemed to be leaving. We shrugged it off but then saw it double back. This time, it looked like it was going to crash into the ground. “I don’t think planes bank like that,” I said in a very anxious voice. Things then began to fall from the plane as it swooped over our heads; they were bombs. People around us started to scream and run around.

Suddenly, the plane and bombs were gone, and people were once again playing in the water, hanging out, and enjoying the day. Trin was back at the pool ladder, climbing in again. The plane scene had never happened; it was a premonition. I yelled at Trin, upon realizing this, that we had to get out of there, we were in danger. She seemed surprised enough by my urgency that she listened and came with me. I yelled at the guy and girl and everyone else I passed; I was now running down the hill. My parents’ house was at the foot of it; people who had been on the hill were now running everywhere. I heard the plane in the sky above the hill and I knew I didn’t have much time. I ran to the side of the house and pulled out a insulated board from the concrete foundation. I was going to get under the house because it seemed the sturdiest, most covered place.

I got inside and was grossed out because I thought there were bugs on the ground, but I sure wasn’t leaving. I pulled the ‘door’ back into place and stayed there because there was another concrete wall making a corner, even though I had entered the foundation in the middle of one side. I did that tornado drill maneuver they teach you in school: kneel with your head down and your arms over your head. I heard the bombs start to drop outside and hoped people were safe. I smelled something burning and turned my head to see part of the floor of my parents’ house, several yards behind me, was on fire.

The plane screeching and bombs dropping didn’t last long. I lifted my head but planned to stay under the house for a while longer. However, a group of people came up outside the foundation opening next to me. They pulled the board out and I saw it was a bunch of men dressed in big hazmat suits, carrying lots of weird equipment. They climbed in the hole and laid some other man down next to me. He looked injured in some way. They stuck an oxygen tube in his mouth and poured water down over top of the tube; he fainted. One of the hazmat guys wanted to do the same thing to me, but I protested. I don’t know if they wanted to test me for something or what, but they eventually convinced me to allow them to knock me out. I laid down, they stuck the tube in my mouth, and then the same guy poured water down the back of my throat. Things went black and I could feel my right arm flop down across my chest.

I woke up in the middle of a bus filled with Asians. I looked around, confused, and the people around me looked back at me. Everyone seemed dirty and tired. I noticed we were driving through some residential neighborhood that looked poor and rundown. I stood up and cried, “What’s going on?” Some older woman at the front of the bus was standing up. She looked Italian and had long, curly black hair. She wanted me to sit back down and be quiet, but I wanted some answers. I also didn’t want to be on the bus, so I made my way to the side emergency door that was behind my seat. The woman at the front saw what I was doing too late, and I hopped off the bus, which fortunately wasn’t moving quickly.

The bus stopped as I ran up to one of the houses. The woman got off and screamed at me to stop; I was about to knock on the door. “What’s going on?” I demanded again, not leaving the front porch of the house. “Where are my parents and husband?” The woman wouldn’t answer me, but instead kept yelling for me to come off the porch, that it was breaking the agreement. The people still on the bus were watching out the windows with scared expressions on their faces. The woman seemed to be debating coming after me, so I quickly turned and pounded on the door.

The next part was a blur. Some man opened the door but he didn’t look normal. He instead looked like a zombie, with his face all contorted and rotting. I backed off the porch toward the woman, who was now screaming for us to get back on the bus. I didn’t have a problem this time, so we quickly got on the bus as the zombie man came shambling toward us.

The dream skipped and the bus had pulled up to a very dusty patch of grass leading to a bar down the side of a hill. There was a junkyard next door and it was twilight. We were all getting off the bus; I still didn’t know what had happened to everyone, particularly my parents and Todd, who was apparently my husband. We all kind of stood around in the yard for a few minutes. I was looking around because a lot of other people were already here. None of them were like the creepy zombie man who had come out of the house.

I felt some presence behind me and started to whip around out of fear. It was Todd, and he was smelling my hair. He was looking blankly off into space but he wasn’t a zombie. He suddenly grabbed me in a hug because he recognized me. I was so shocked that it took me a minute to hug him back. We both started crying and he started going on about having worried and missed me. I said that I had been worried, too. I pulled back to look at him again and realized he was blind. I cried harder and hugged him again.

The dream shifted again and everyone was inside the bar; it was nighttime. Todd and I, along with several others, were sitting on the floor along one wall. Some guy was behind the bar, cleaning out a glass and dressed like a bartender. Some of us were sleeping, a few of us talking. I hadn’t found my parents, but I had found out what had happened. Apparently, when the plane dropped the bombs, it crashed shortly afterward. A lot of people had been killed by it, others like us had survived, but also a lot had been turned into the zombie creatures that we normal people were calling ‘Planers’. (My subconscious totally took this from Cell by Stephen King, only in that book it was cell phones and the mutants were called ‘Phoners’.) The Planers wanted to kill us normal people. Apparently, some kind of agreement had been made shortly after this was discovered, though, that we would all leave each other alone. I had no idea how long I had been unconscious between being under the house to being on the bus.

Suddenly, a group of people came to the bar door outside; Planers. People around me started standing up and grabbing for weapons. Todd and I remained sitting, Todd on my right with me closest to the door. A metal broom handle was shoved into my hand. The Planers came in and yelled to see “the dissenter;” they meant me, because I had knocked on that guy’s door. I waved my broom handle kind of tiredly and refused to get up. One Planer caught my attention; it was Bentley. The other Planers hung around the door but Bentley came up to stand in front of me; he was also holding a broom handle. He took a hard swing at me but I was able to meet him, so our brooms just clacked together. They bent a little bit. Bentley and I talked for a bit over top of the broom fight. He finally stopped swinging at me and tossed his bent handle at me. He turned to leave and I called his name; when he turned around, I tossed him my broken, shorter broom handle. He and the other Planers left.

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